am I a good person?
Really..
Truly??
yesterday I thought about Rob. I thought about how I've never hated anyone in my life. I don't even know how to. I know that love and hate are 2 sides of the Saame coin and that it takes passion to fuel both.
Anytime I think of Rob, there's pain. And anger. I dream of driving to his house and keying his car. I think of writing Kim about Julienne. I dream of hurting him in any way so that he might feel the betrayal of what I feel.
And yet yesterday, I fed the homeless. Or I help plan a benefit for dog adoption.
I drink my ass off and cuss like a sailor
But I make sure my cats are taken care of before me.
Some days I wake up and I really wonder, is there a point system? Are there markers and tallies of good and bad things I think about or do? Can I win?
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